Live Free Or Let Me Die

"Live Free Or Let Me Die"

Death until the dust, and we're waiting
Ruined in the rust, of our craving
It feels like, it feels like
Don't you know the cost, of your betrayal?
You're the one that's lost, you're gonna fail
It feels like, it feels like you're gasping with all your might

You can't take away my strength
Fix these broken veins
There's nothing left to fight (Live free or let me die)
You can't take away my pride, I won't be denied
There's nothing left to fight (Live free or let me die)

Insects walk below, I'm on a wire
Fire will burn below, but I am higher
It feels like, it feels like
Don't you know the cost, of your betrayal?
You're the one that's lost, you're gonna fail
It feels like, it feels like you're gasping with all your might

You can't take away my strength
Fix these broken veins
There's nothing left to fight (Live free or let me die)
You can't take away my pride, I won't be denied
There's nothing left to fight (Live free or let me die)

Do you remember how
You became who you are now?
Do you remember how
It felt to breathe without
Gasping with all your might?

You can't take away my strength
Fix these broken veins
Nothing left to fight

You can't take away my strength
Fix these broken veins
There's nothing left to fight (Live free or let me die)
You can't take away my pride, I won't be denied
There's nothing left to fight
Nothing left to fight (Nothing left to fight)
Live free or let me die
Live free or let me die
Live free or let me die

I don't know where I am or what I'm doing. Lately it feels like no one really cares in the end anyway. If I take a step back, I know that's not true, but late at night when I feel so alone it's hard to see the truth. And lately I feel so alone...

I need to get out of here. The stress of being here. Of dealing with all of this, with my mom, with home... It's driving me crazy and it's driving me to regrettable things... I need to get out of here. Matt offered to let me stay at his house and his mom is fine with it. Nothing would happen. Ms. Kim is amazing. But my dad... *rubs head* I could stay with Bit... but she's really one of the worst things for me. Kim, no. Faith, no. I... I have nowhere to go... And it's two more weeks to the day until Liss comes.

I don't think I can make it that long.

Each day it gets harder to hold on. I have no motivation for anything... I can barely force myself to get online. To write this. I have a major paper due Thursday that I haven't even begun. The added stress that puts on me brings me to the brink of insanity every time I think about it.

Not as if that's an excuse that will get me out of a zero for a grade. A ten to twelve page research paper. I need at least eight sources. I have four. I need to have all the research, my rough draft, bibliography, and works cited page done and turned in in a few days. Not to mention that Art project.

Can I just... vanish for a while? I can't handle life right now.

This all sucks. So bad.

Plus I was a major jerk to one of my best friends.

I seriously can't do anything right...

I just don't care anymore.

I screw everything up.

No wonder everyone ends up hating me.

Million Voices (Last one. For now.)

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Surrender

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Here's My Life

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Comatose (Lol!)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Better Than Drugs (O_O)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Right Here

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Softer to Me

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Scarborough Fair

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Carrickfergus

WHAT IS 2+2?
Beyond the Sea (:P)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
One More Round (O_o)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Glory Defined (LOL! Bad!)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Over the Rainbow (Okay...?)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Take My Chances

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
The Last Night

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Mirror

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Leaving 99

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Whispers in the Dark

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Cornerstone

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECREt?
Pedastal

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Open Skies

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
My Last Breath

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Ballon Ride (Lol!)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Vivaldi's Rain

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Granuaile's Dance

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Caladonia

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
You're Worthy of My Praise

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
My Personal Moon

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Staples

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Everybody's Fool

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Forever

WHAT WILL YOU POST AFTER THIS?
Thoughts of You

The Love We Had Before (Yes another. :P)

Yeah, I'm really bored... :ninja:


IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Take You Back

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Perfect Day

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Sightlines

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
I Believe in Love

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Be My Escape

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
God Will Lift Up Your Head

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Superstars (*dies laughing*)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Hello

WHAT IS 2+2?
Average girl

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Into the Night

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
My Immortal (It must be Jacob then. :P)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Bring Me to Life

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
She Walked Away

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Stand Up

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
5 Minutes of Fame

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Enough

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Never Alone

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
The Way To Begin

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECREt?
Charles in Charge (O_o)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Song For The Broken

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Atmosphere

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
You Gave Me A Promise (...)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Grey

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Never Alone (Acoustic)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Take Me Away

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Mirror (... mirror on the wall?)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Newgrange

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Sweet Revenge (O_O)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
All That I Can Do

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Unbreakable

WHAT WILL YOU POST AFTER THIS?
I Need You to Love Me

The Older I Get (song game)

Too much fun to resist. :D


IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Taking Over

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
One World

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Beautiful Name

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Wake Up Call

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Those Nights

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Brand New Day

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Just Fine

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Beautiful Love

WHAT IS 2+2?
Keep Quiet

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Harder Than The First time

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
The Space In Between Us (O_o)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Falling Inside the Black

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
I Believe

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
On My Own

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Imaginary (Um... okay?)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Voice of Truth

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Let Go

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
My Immortal (Edward? :P)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECREt?
You Raise Me Up

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Never Alone

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Wrapped in Your Arms

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Whisper

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Orchard of Mines

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Modern Jazz Samba (I don't know that song...)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Say Goodbye

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Show You Love

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
My Girlfrind (O_O)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
The Blesssing

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Whatever it Takes

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Hide

WHAT WILL YOU POST AFTER THIS?
Clothes

Ugh...

I hate being sick. I've had this terrible cough for around two weeks. It's horrid. I can barely breathe, let alone talk or sing. And that's killing me. <_< I want to sing along with my music.

There's a beautiful video that I've fallen in love with. It's a Harry Potter vid about Ron set to the song Zero by Hawk Nelson. It's just gorgeous. I'll post it here.
Zero- Ron Dies

It's so good.

I've also been listening to a few other songs and videos a lot. Orchard of Mines for one. I absolutely adore it. It's gorgeous!

Um... other than that... I've been really busy with stuff so I'm hardly ever around to talk to people. It really sucks. Even now I have to go again.

Bye y'all! No galu govad gen!

Lonliness

Loneliness makes shadows dance
Haunted darkness waits close at hand
Till the last snowflake falls to the ground
I find myself lost in a frozen dying world
~Unnamed song by Blire Lynn

I wish I had someone here right now. I'm so lonely I want to cry.

Happy New Year (A little late...)

I know January is almost over, but I wish you all a happy New Year anyway! There's still over 11 months left and you should enjoy those.

I'm not going to make a long post, but I just wanted to update.

It's my brothers birthday today.

I miss my friends.

And my parents are driving me crazy.

See y'all later.